Music as a lifeline.

I'm fairly certain I came out of the womb listening to music. My parents were 80s metal heads, but the only tape we had in our Mazda 323 was The Tim Burton "Batman" soundtrack. My dad would also get drunk & play "jukebox". Hecwould ay a song & my mom would guess it before he stopped it. On my way to my grandmothers house in Plano she would often play me The Phantom of the Opera soundtrack. With the addition of Disney Films & sing-a-long vhs', it's a no-brainer why i was in dance at 4 years old. 

However that was very shortlived. Throughout the next few years i discovered my own taste in music. My dad had discovered napster, so we were getting full albums of music. I went through a spice girl phase, A*teens & the beatles. Then, my best friend & crush i really had it for BAD- gave me a copy of System of a Down's "Steal this album" (which he had) and thus started the now decades long love of Hard Rock. 

In junior high i became best friends with these 2 girls with the same name. They had come into junior high having been friends for years. One girl used to carry 2 binders to every class. One with CDs, and one for school work. I spent hours (that i couldve spent studying) pouring over these cds. Thus started my love for pop & pop punk music. Sum 41, Chevelle, AFI,  Avril Lavigne & Linkin Park. At this point in my life i had been playing pretty proficiently at cello. I had been to summer camp for orchestra. My social development exploded. I was really good at cello. All i had to do was hear the song be played first, hand me a piece of sheet music & within a few practice play throughs, i got it. My parents ended up buying me a cello. We still own it. Its in my in laws storage. 

Moving forward to high school. I auditioned for the orchestra placement. I ended up in the middle orchestra with sophomores & Juniors. I didnt know this at the time but i played many concerts sitting right next to my future husband. We connected pretty quickly over songs. He got me into industrial music by telling me Trent Reznor was in KMFDM. My first concert was KMFDM, with him. Since then, we've seen, photographed, met & somewhat toured with some of our favorite bands together. He's been there for almost every major artist we've seen in concert. I've opened the avenues to meet some world famous bands & to work for some natiobally recognized bands. 

My spotify account has probably 40 playlists. One for every type of activity/ocassion out there. Its amazing how one song can literally transport me to very specific points or nights of my life in so much detail its like im reliving the entire scene again. 

My husband and i had our first dance to At Last & our last song was The Fragile by Nine inch Nails at our wedding. I know what song i lost my virginity to. I know what my first alcohol songs were. I remember the first song i cut myself to (as an angsty teen). I remember my first break up.song. I have songs that remind me of my daughters being born. I have songs that remind me of my youth. Music is the one thing that helps me clean, work through emotions, relax, read to & write to. 

How does music make you feel?